Well, first of all, I would like to say I'm sorry for having been gone so long, but the last couple of days have been kind of rough.
It has been somwhat of a hell, lots of stuff coming up, triggersw and bad nights.
So basically I haven't slept pretty much, but have spent the time behind the computers trying to make a server setup, just a way to spend the nights :)
some would say it's insane, but it's the only sane thing for me right now, because I don't sleep anyway, so I might as well get some things done while im up.

This is really driving me up the walls, thinking of all this shit every day. A lot of the time I try to push it away, but can't, it's just to powerfull...
I still get reminded everyday, everywhere I turn.
I can still feel them, still see them, everything they did, everything they said.
This is something i could do without, but I don't know how to get rid of it right now. "Sigh" just have to hope things will get better some time soon.

But I have been lucky to find a place on the web, thats quite cool, with someone that actually understands, and that's nice, because I don't think my friends do.
some of the time, it's like they don't get it, like they just want it to over with, and move on.
I know Im withdrawing from them, but I can't help it right now, don't what to do about it..

Well, I guess this has been enough rambling for tonight :)

Happyface

Well, just so that you know who's site you looking at, maybe a quick intro is in it's place :)

First of all, I would like to say, Im sorry for any misspelling here on the site, I don't have english as my native language, because Im a dane, so please be paient with me :)

Im am a male survivor of incest and rape, 26 years of age and as I've said before im from Denmark.
Some of my interests are moviemaking, theather and computers, espacially the more "Nerdy" stuff..
This place were created to convey my thoughts of the healing process, the steps it takes to overcome this, and as a place for my friends to keep up with some of the curly thinking Im doing sometimes :)

But I guess this is enough about me for now, please look around, feel at home, but if you know the things I write aout on this site, please stay safe while youre here..

Happyface