Well, first of all, I would like to say I'm sorry for having been gone so long, but the last couple of days have been kind of rough.
It has been somwhat of a hell, lots of stuff coming up, triggersw and bad nights.
So basically I haven't slept pretty much, but have spent the time behind the computers trying to make a server setup, just a way to spend the nights :)
some would say it's insane, but it's the only sane thing for me right now, because I don't sleep anyway, so I might as well get some things done while im up.

This is really driving me up the walls, thinking of all this shit every day. A lot of the time I try to push it away, but can't, it's just to powerfull...
I still get reminded everyday, everywhere I turn.
I can still feel them, still see them, everything they did, everything they said.
This is something i could do without, but I don't know how to get rid of it right now. "Sigh" just have to hope things will get better some time soon.

But I have been lucky to find a place on the web, thats quite cool, with someone that actually understands, and that's nice, because I don't think my friends do.
some of the time, it's like they don't get it, like they just want it to over with, and move on.
I know Im withdrawing from them, but I can't help it right now, don't what to do about it..

Well, I guess this has been enough rambling for tonight :)

Happyface